Secret Binge Eating

I woke up feeling miserable this morning and 12 hours later I still feel miserable. Not because I let myself down. I continuously choose to let myself down so I just feel numb to the whole situation. Eating crap has left my digestive track in a horrible state. I literally just feel sick to my stomach.
These are evidence photos of the shameful binge I went on last night. I purposely went to the grocery store to buy copious amounts of junk food to indulge in. Two beers, egg nog, gingerbread Oreos, an assortment of Ghirardelli chocolates, cheese and original Lays potato chips. I really wanted to try the new limited edition dessert Pringles like pumpkin pie or cinnamon and sugar but the display had been moved no where to be found. All of these are items I like or wanted to try but never allow myself to. This is definitely not the first time I've binged. Although normally my binges include ice cream, donuts and sometimes cake. Some binges my boyfriend indulges with me. I think he secretly likes my random binges because he gets to eat stuff we normally never eat. Other binges are completely secret, when no one else is around. It is no wonder I am Skinney-Fat! However it does sometimes amaze me that I'm not overweight. But then again when my clothes get to be way too tight, like they are right now, I do start regulating myself. Any day now highly motivated Elizabeth will wake up ready to take on the world. I just need to find a better copping mechanism for stress and frustration than turning to food and alcohol so she can stay around for good!